realistic world..

mama say cannot ignore the fact of the realistic world.. she says 4 years of full time studies is too long.. she asked about my income, how am i going to survive? i say i can work part time, then she replied, if u work part time, will it affect ur studies? I really do feel abit selfish of myself... wanting to do what i like, thinking that everything is possible. not only didnt think of family, also didnt think of him. if i were to study, he has to wait for another 5 years for me. but how am i going to save money within that one year after completion of my studies for marriage? hmmm. in life, u r not alone.. ur decisions alone will not determined your future. who knows what will happen in the future? I am so sure of my decisions 2 weeks ago, why am i thinking of all these now? what am i supposed to do now? what is my future path?

why do i still smile uncontrollably when i see children with special needs?